when promises are made i really hope that they are fulfilled.... u cant keep on making empty promises and keep letting me be hopeful but yet disappoint me over and over again. it just gets so frustrating. i dont knw what to expect and i hate this feeling, this feeling of waiting. i know u haf your own life but stop dangling the carrot in front of me promising friendship when u dont even bother to put in the effort. you knw how important friends are to me even more than relationships but yet you keep playing me. you haf issues abt me that's your own personal battle u haf to take on yourself if u refuse to let me help you but please dont let it drag me in too. im too tired, too frustrated with my own stuff as it is that it would be nice to knw where the line is drawn so that i dont need to wait for you to call/email/contact me whenever you feel like it. i always prided myself in being the aloof one in a relationship but inevitably emotions gets involved and i find myself subconciously hoping that this will be one of the times that u'll surprise me.
i wish i wasnt stuck in my room today... everything's just so crappy. tried to head out but really wasnt feeling too well to handle other people arnd much less the public transportation. i really miss sarah, gina and johan now... if this were to be back home we'll be at alley by now.... having lychee martinis.
i miss the times when i still din see the point of having a relationship, when guys were viewed as friends and nothing else coming into play. everything was soooo simple back then, we'll meet up at the playground and stay there till the sunsets and our moms come to pick us up.
im guessing im only feeling this lousy coz i cant make as many trips back home as i want to. its just one of those days
